Here's the Purported Suicide Note From Epstein

A federal judge has finally ordered the release of a purported suicide note that Jeffrey Epstein wrote.

The note was allegedly found in July 2019 by his cellmate, Nicholas Tartaglione, after Epstein was found in his cell with neck injuries.

🚨🚨 NYT publishes purported Jeffrey Epstein suicide note, which his cellmate says he found in between the pages of a graphic novel. It has not been authenticated.

“They investigated me for month — FOUND NOTHING!!" Then it references 15-yr-old charges.

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“They investigated me for month — FOUND NOTHING!!!” the note begins, adding that the result was charges going back many years.
“It is a treat to be able to choose one’s time to say goodbye,” the note continued.
“Watcha want me to do — Bust out cryin!!” the note reads.
“NO FUN," it concludes, with those words underlined. “NOT WORTH IT!!”

When Jeffrey Epstein was found at that point, he initially claimed that his cellmate did it, and he was not suicidal. Tartaglione denied it, and Epstein then apparently retracted the claim, telling officials that he had no issue with the cellmate.

Mr. Tartaglione said he gave the note to his lawyers because he believed it could have been helpful if Mr. Epstein continued to claim that he had tried to hurt him.

Tartaglione was a former police officer who at that point had been charged in a quadruple murder. He was later convicted, but is appealing.

Epstein was later found dead in August 2019, and the official ruling was that it was a suicide.

The note was released by a federal judge pursuant to a petition by the New York Times.

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Why did it take so long to come out?

The Times has not authenticated the note, which was placed on the court docket Wednesday evening. The note repeats a saying — “bust out cryin” — that Mr. Epstein wrote in emails. It included another phrase — “No fun” — that Mr. Epstein also used in emails, as well as in a separate note found in his jail cell at the time of his death.
The note apparently became part of a drawn-out legal dispute among Mr. Tartaglione’s lawyers. Documents related to the conflict were placed under a court seal to protect attorney-client privilege, the filings say.

The parties in the Tartaglione case reportedly had no objections to the judge granting the NY Times' request to release the note.

Here's handwriting seen on Epstein's reported blackboard on his island, although the blackboard is printed, and the purported suicide note is more cursive.

Read the eerie messages scrawled on blackboard at Jeffrey Epstein’s private island https://t.co/6WnCUp2rP2 pic.twitter.com/hrTZw0Q0L4
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So you can make of that what you will, and whether it's a window into what his mindset was in July before his alleged suicide in August.

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